In the merry old land of Oddz---NOT

I am a mess today.  So much crap happened yesterday that I don't know how much more I can take before committal is needed.

The worst is that we are going to be investigated by the Justice Department.  We obey the law, do everything we can for our clients, go above and beyond but still.. it's terrifying. 

I have a mind that runs away with me at the smallest provocation and so this has my brain in a stranglehold.

Then we learned that while we thought we would get the whole amount of our fire claim in one check, we now find out that we have to buy the items we lost whether we want them or not.  Now since we were planning on using contents for upgrades about the house and the new roof is already on, I have no idea how we are going to pay for it all.

Now this morning my brain did not have enough fun keeping me tossing and turning all night and giving me the headache from hell but now I thought what if the justice department throws us in jail.  I think I have to give in and call my doctor for something to boost my prozac and keep me as close to sane as I can get. 

I hate being like this.  I hate being a burden.  I hate being terrified out of my mind.... I hate... I hate.... I hate.....

Sorry but since I cannot maintain anin person friendship I have no one else to talk to.  Thanks for listening.